So when they say that when you DON'T make any "New Year's Resolution's," that it'll actually happen? Well whoever said that is a genius! For the first time (in a long time) I didn't make any resolutions at the beginning of the year.
I've always made resolutions since I've been overweight, saying that this'll be the year where I'll lose the weight. And of course, it never happened. This year I didn't care what happened. I've been truly happy since January of 2010. I found a love like no other. A happiness I've never felt. And I used this love for my own selfish needs. The need to be happy and feel safe. Last January, I wasn't going to school so I was getting in trouble for that. They called me in for counseling every Thursday and I realized I do have some issues.
People make fun of shrinks and counseling but boy do I recommend it for EVERYONE! Anyway, when I would come home from these "sessions" I would be so happy, relieved, and to top it off, I had my "love."
So I'm gonna tell you what this "love" I keep on referring to is.. It's music. I found a band (I know how immature this must sound) who is unlike any other. I latched on like a barnacle to say the least. I've fallen into such a "trance" with them. They've made me so happy, and they came to me when I needed them most. 2010 is filled with memories made by them. Last year was (so far) the best of my life.
I used to think that it was stupid when people would say that they had a favorite band. I've always loved music, and all kinds at that. But when it happened to me.. it was the start of a revolution. :)
2010 completely revolved around me and this band. This music, and this LOVE. I became a new person. I was always viewed as the "smart one." I always did great in school, I was always advanced. Always the nice one. I still am. I will always be proud that I'm smart. But I ALWAYS wanted to be known for more than just that. I wanted a TRUE identity. I believe with all my heart that this band, my DNA, my passion and inspiration, has given me an identity. A drive to be a better person.
Soo.. now that I KNOW that I love this band, and that they will always be 'mine,' 2011 became more than just that. Yes, 2010 was more of a year of discovery, of information. And I believe 2011 is year where I'll use my new "me" and put it to better use.
So late January, (2011) I began my weightloss. My sister was going to the gym and I tagged along, joined MFP, and began to see some change! So far (4-8-11) I have lost 19lbs!! We're taking at least 2 trips this year.. I'm going to see my favorite band live in just 4 days!! I believe this trip only evolved because of what happened last year. (Me finding this band.) Literally it's true.
But I believe more is to come! But with all my soul, I will forever believe that this all started with me finding this band. I'll lose for them even if I don't lose it for myself. I'll lose it for my future. Even if I'll lose 100lbs (total) it all began with the night of January 16, the night where I found this lovely band. It all began with 2011 and even MFP. I thank everybody, even myself, for giving me the courage to be me and to take a step forward in losing weight! My first step..
I take moments to stop and smell the roses.. enjoy the music.. and my life. To have faith in myself and to believe that I can achieve ANYTHING I set my mind to! I want to remember all of this! My whole wieghtloss journey. I want a story to tell! And if I do ever meet this band, I wanna be able to tell them what I've done for them. What I've acomplished. How much I love them and that they truly are an inspiration to me! I can TOTALLY ADMIT THAT I WAS WRONG by saying it's impossible to have a favorite band.
I remember a time when I would cry and pray for a miracle. To one day wake up be the "perfect weight." I know people say be happy with what you are.. but that's not enough for me. I want more! Call me selfish, but I wanna be HOT someday! lol. SO, I WILL lose this weight, and I WILL accomplish my goals, and I WILL be anything and do ANYTHING that I want. :)
My Inspirations --
1. THIS BAND/MUSIC
2. MY FUTURE/HEALTH
3. MY FAMILY
4. THAT ONE KID BACK IN 5TH GRADE WHO WHISPERED I WAS FAT
---So this was just a summary of where my inspiration comes from---
P.S. I hope EVERYONE finds the same kind of happiness that I have. To love something and all their flaws! To find them 100% beautiful in every way! To be YOUR inspiration! Sometimes.. love just finds you, whether you were prepared or not.
I've always made resolutions since I've been overweight, saying that this'll be the year where I'll lose the weight. And of course, it never happened. This year I didn't care what happened. I've been truly happy since January of 2010. I found a love like no other. A happiness I've never felt. And I used this love for my own selfish needs. The need to be happy and feel safe. Last January, I wasn't going to school so I was getting in trouble for that. They called me in for counseling every Thursday and I realized I do have some issues.
People make fun of shrinks and counseling but boy do I recommend it for EVERYONE! Anyway, when I would come home from these "sessions" I would be so happy, relieved, and to top it off, I had my "love."
So I'm gonna tell you what this "love" I keep on referring to is.. It's music. I found a band (I know how immature this must sound) who is unlike any other. I latched on like a barnacle to say the least. I've fallen into such a "trance" with them. They've made me so happy, and they came to me when I needed them most. 2010 is filled with memories made by them. Last year was (so far) the best of my life.
I used to think that it was stupid when people would say that they had a favorite band. I've always loved music, and all kinds at that. But when it happened to me.. it was the start of a revolution. :)
2010 completely revolved around me and this band. This music, and this LOVE. I became a new person. I was always viewed as the "smart one." I always did great in school, I was always advanced. Always the nice one. I still am. I will always be proud that I'm smart. But I ALWAYS wanted to be known for more than just that. I wanted a TRUE identity. I believe with all my heart that this band, my DNA, my passion and inspiration, has given me an identity. A drive to be a better person.
Soo.. now that I KNOW that I love this band, and that they will always be 'mine,' 2011 became more than just that. Yes, 2010 was more of a year of discovery, of information. And I believe 2011 is year where I'll use my new "me" and put it to better use.
So late January, (2011) I began my weightloss. My sister was going to the gym and I tagged along, joined MFP, and began to see some change! So far (4-8-11) I have lost 19lbs!! We're taking at least 2 trips this year.. I'm going to see my favorite band live in just 4 days!! I believe this trip only evolved because of what happened last year. (Me finding this band.) Literally it's true.
But I believe more is to come! But with all my soul, I will forever believe that this all started with me finding this band. I'll lose for them even if I don't lose it for myself. I'll lose it for my future. Even if I'll lose 100lbs (total) it all began with the night of January 16, the night where I found this lovely band. It all began with 2011 and even MFP. I thank everybody, even myself, for giving me the courage to be me and to take a step forward in losing weight! My first step..
I take moments to stop and smell the roses.. enjoy the music.. and my life. To have faith in myself and to believe that I can achieve ANYTHING I set my mind to! I want to remember all of this! My whole wieghtloss journey. I want a story to tell! And if I do ever meet this band, I wanna be able to tell them what I've done for them. What I've acomplished. How much I love them and that they truly are an inspiration to me! I can TOTALLY ADMIT THAT I WAS WRONG by saying it's impossible to have a favorite band.
I remember a time when I would cry and pray for a miracle. To one day wake up be the "perfect weight." I know people say be happy with what you are.. but that's not enough for me. I want more! Call me selfish, but I wanna be HOT someday! lol. SO, I WILL lose this weight, and I WILL accomplish my goals, and I WILL be anything and do ANYTHING that I want. :)
My Inspirations --
1. THIS BAND/MUSIC
2. MY FUTURE/HEALTH
3. MY FAMILY
4. THAT ONE KID BACK IN 5TH GRADE WHO WHISPERED I WAS FAT
---So this was just a summary of where my inspiration comes from---
P.S. I hope EVERYONE finds the same kind of happiness that I have. To love something and all their flaws! To find them 100% beautiful in every way! To be YOUR inspiration! Sometimes.. love just finds you, whether you were prepared or not.
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